S.H.I.T happens

Today is the day where i finally stamp the point that Asian kids are more protected than they should be... Parents still do try to release their grip once awhile [once in a blue moon]... Besides that, it's just plenty of scolding, stress and frustration... I get it most of the times...

I don't have parents to control [literally] me but there's my aunts and my grandma... I know they LOVE me alot....and i love them alot too... but their attempt to lock me inside the house is just rubbish...!! "Students should not come back so late"... 11pm curfew that is...

They just don't understand that the more they lock me inside the house, the more rebellious that I'll get... That is not an excuse... it's the reality...

I love to hang out, dance my head off, or just sitting outside yumcha...

BUT

After some thoughts, i realise that this is part of growing up and being responsible for my actions...

The thing that i hate about myself is that i contradict myself! i get frustrated and angry but after awhile, i begin to think for them....as in, the reasons on why they did it...
i don't know if this is a good habit or not... cuz im confusing myself most of the time...

Neways, I watched ALFIE the other day... and i noticed that i've been quite selfish... i take and never did give anything in return... well, not that i wana take it... people just give it to me... is God trying to tell me that if i don't appreciate these people, i'll end up like Alfie; all lost and lonely? Am i that into myself?? There's so many things that is running inside my mind... such as the stuff that i shud give them, how to return the favor, how to make them happy... it's running on and on inside my head... guess what, it's just inside my mind... i never got to the point where i execute my plans and thoughts... hahax... im a funny fella...
aint i?




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