i understand.

i truly understand you.
i've been 17.
and i know how it is like.
it hurts me to see you so sanfu.
so, i'll just close one eye.
you're my funny bunny.
and i want you to be happy.

im at australia.
i cant do anything.
im helpless in many ways.
all i can do is agree to whatever you want.
that is how much i love you.
im too loyal for my own good.
im too stubborn for my own good.
but i love you so.

i may seem stupid to others.
i may seem to be too 'wai dai' to others.
i should be selfish.
i should stop you.
i should control you.
but i cant make myself to do it.

other people may tell me that...
there will be someone who will only love me.
there will be someone who only wants me.
there will be someone who will only wait for me.
there will be someone who is more worthy of my devotion.
i will listen to you guys, making my own crazy unbalanced judgements..
but seriously, i dont care.
hahahhax...

i may not be able to accept whatever you may be doing with her now,
but given time, i will.

given this 2+ months.
i will be able to accept it.
no matter what happens,
no matter what decision you make,
i'll accept it.

i refuse to take us as 'yau yuen mou fan'..
i simply refuse.

my heart aches for you.
my heart aches because of you.
but i know your heart aches more because of me.
you cant handle it as smoothly as i could.
you're my everything.
you're my everything.

when december comes,
i'll prove that im worth the wait.

i owe you 2 ear piercings.
i owe you a session of 'zi dui'.
i owe you 6 months of pictures.
i owe you 6 months of kisses.
i owe you 6 months of hugs.
i owe you 6 months of cuddles.
i owe you 6 months of my cooked food.
i owe you 6 months of pak tor-ing.
i owe you 6 months of my everything.
i owe you a honda. =.="

so far, you're my biggest debtor.

hahax...

people grow through experiences.
i can only hope that i will emerge triumphant.