还要爱。。

this is not what i've expected.

must love make a fool out of me?
is god trying to play a trick on me?
why do i always fail in the subject of love?
why is it always another person?
am i not good enough?
do i look stupid?
do i look like i can be played?
do i look like im an idiot?
do i look naive????

MTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and yet, i cant be frustrated or angry at you.

you don't know how deep is the cut you gave me.
if i could, i would cut my heart out and give it to you.
that's how deeply i felt for you.

but you chose her.

me. the stupid fool. is sitting here writing this blog. with the tears falling down from my face.

i keep telling myself that you lied to me about your girlfriend.. you just want me to pay more attention to you... and suddenly today, whooossshh~~~

you and her 1 1/2 years... me and you haven't even reach 6 months...

you were telling me the truth after all.

it was me who was being really stubborn. i was being a cow. i was the idiot.

it rained a lot today. it's really cold. and my heart... i lost my heart... got washed away by the rain falling down from my face..

what were you thinking? you chose her. and yet, you still like me. you sound like jesmin... the one who's making kitvy suffer like shit...

buddy, im sitting on the same boat as you. now i truly know how u felt.

爱本来就该独一无二。。。

now i know why you don't write me testimonials...
now i know why you don't reply my sms...
now i know why you seemed cold...
now i know why you are reluctant to tell me that you miss me or love me...
now i finally know the answers to my questions all this while...

what do i do now?
when do i stop?
where do i go?
can we still be friends?

i know i still love you deeply and want you more than ever.

the question is... do you want me?