come take me away...

it's grey skies here. in my world.

why do i get the feeling like you don't care?
2 more days and it'll be 5 months of me & you...
but does it still count?
when do we start.
when did we stop.
where are we standing.
do i keep counting.

maybe im just clapping happily with myself.
im so into you but i never really know much about your feelings towards me.
cuz u never really tell me... ahaks...
well, except for the "im not attracted to you" part...
and the so called gf... u told me she doesnt exist...
yet, you keep bringing her up...
it's driving me insane...

to be honest, sometimes i feel tired...
tired of hanging on to the possibilities that you feel the same as i do..
am i that bad? am i such a turnoff?

i can only tell myself not to think so much.
reii... dont think le...
the more you think, the more depressed, frustrated & tired you will be...

but, at least pickup to say goodnight?

what is life?
what is growing up?
what is being 22 about?

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.:: nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the bullshit, take chances and never have regrets cause at one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted =) ::.

.:: live with intention, walk the edge, listen hard, practice wellness, play with abandon, laugh, choose with no regret, continue to learn, appreciate your friends, do what you love and live as if there is no tomorrow ::.

life indeed is quite short. i may not live to see tomorrow.
actually, i dont mind if i cant live to see tomorrow...
hahahax... so many things that i want to do...
so little time... so many setbacks...
i am not free...

i wana fly... want to make my own decisions...
want to do whatever i want...
want to do whatever i feel...
im willing to compromise...
but, im afraid that i'll lose myself...
lose my family, lose my friends, lose you...

so now, do i start to fly?
i really want to.

Aunt Ping said, the is a difference on how they deliver the teachings...
but the most important thing is what i deliver...

stay here or go back?

i am still undecided...