it IS as TOUGH as it seems.

seems like im in denial.
well, i am i guess.
keep telling myself that im not bad.
keep my spirits up.
keep my confidence up.
but everything just crashes down everytime.

[J] you toyed with my feelings and funnily enough, i really loved you.

[Q] apparently has feelings for me at first and then, has no feelings for me later.

[E] somehow, somewhere along the line, we became buddies.

what is this. trials and errors of my life. lol.
im so blank right now.
dont know what im supposed to feel.

i love being around you.
i love hanging out with you.
i love the rides we share.
i love our nites out.
i love your rants.

but that's it.
that's the furthest i can go.

we're buddies. i know we are.
but it's still kind of hard to push you to someone else.
if you know what i mean.
i will still do it, but with mixed emotions.
it's an experience for you.
a love life for you.
and im not exactly jealous of what i cant see.
im pretty fond of daphne tan. i think she's kinda cute too.
and all the other hot girls we spot in the clubs, i mean, they're hot!
i'll be happy for you if something did happen between you both. lol.

but no.

its the knowledge of you choosing others rather than me.

you're like the rest of the girls im attracted to.

supposedly im cute, nice to be around with, have a little feeling for me.....
whatever...
it all comes down to one thing.
im just a good friend.

am i just a good friend material?
am i just no more than like?
questions stabbing at my chest.
fogging up my head.

i know i have no choice. but to stay this way.
because i dont want to lose you..
as a buddy, a friend, whatever...
EVER.

you're so not my type. but why am i so attracted to you. (=.=")

gah. im so hungry now. gonna go eat the mac & cheese u left behind.

He starts with her back cause that's what he sees

When she's breaking his heart she still fucks like a tease

Release to the sky, look him straight in the eye

And tell him that now, that you wish he would die

You'll never touch him again so get what you can

Leaving him empty just because he's a man

So good when it ends, they'll never be friends

One more night, that's all they can spend

One more night, that was a good one

One more night, i dreamed it was a good one

One more, one more night, that was a good one

One more night, the end should be a good one