i cry.

i cried like shit just now.

i don't usually cry.

cuz, crying = being weak

i dont like being weak. i want to stand up on my own. live my own life. im a separated being from my family. yes, i do know that they care for me. my grandma, my aunts... and i love them for that... but a family consist of a father, a mother and siblings... i dont have a family...

i have a brother, a mother and a father. and that's it. not family.

i cried because of you. but i know i have made you cried even more.

i regretted yesterday night. i didnt even have the mood yesterday night. but just because i have promised Harry that i'll bring him out, i had to go. i didn't want to leave you. not when you need me. but, i can't just dump Harry to my friends whom he doesn't even know. plus, his english is limited. i don't have much choice.

i know you felt like i have neglected you. felt like i have abandon you. felt unappreciated. felt like you're not important.

but ure not.

you're my everything... my everything...

im lost without you... i need you in my life... more than ever...

baby, i really don't want to breakup with you..

please give me a chance to show that i love you..
please give me a chance to show that i care...
please give me a chance to redeem myself...
please give me a chance to learn my lesson...

i made a mistake... a huge mistake...
and ive learnt my lesson...
i dont want to lose you...
i dont want to repeat this mistake again...
i was being stupid... i was being a fool... i was being an idiot...
please forgive me...

i want to be there for you always... and i will...

baby, i love you.