yet again.

i've made you upset yet again.

i often ask myself: "why on earth do i always do that??"

often wonder what have i said that made you upset... what have i done to make you upset with me... and usually, it'll be me staring at the ceiling hoping that an answer will appear infront of me...

i hate to make you cry.
i hate to make you upset.

i hate.
i hate!!!

there's so many things that i want to do with you.
i want to go on vacation with you.
i want to live with you.
i want you to be the first thing i see in the morning.
i want to hug you and stare at the night sky.
i want to take long strolls with you.
i want to cook for you.
i want to share my happy moments with you.
i want to fly free with you.
i want to spent my every moment with you.

i want to love you...

but yet again... i've either made you sad or make you cry. sometimes i wonder what's wrong with me... am i too slow to understand you? am i stupid enough to sound doubtful in us? am i inconsiderate enough to sound like i don't care?

WRONG!!

i care. i love. i breathe. i think. i miss.

you.

day and night, every second of every day i wish that im beside you. i wish i didn't opt to study in australia. i wish i didn't fail my subject. i wish i was rich. i wish i own an aircraft. i wish i could bring you here. i wish i could show you how much i love you more... i wish... i wish... so many wishes...

i don't care if im the right one for you. i don't care if we end up breaking up. i don't care if you want to get married to a guy and have a family later. i don't care.

i just want us now. i want you. i know i love you and i miss you.

i know you'll wait for me... because i want you to. i know i can do better than what im doing now. i know i can treat you better than that. i know you can have more faith in me. i know you can feel more secure with me. i know im worth the wait.

soon. soon.

all i need is time.

and money.