never take friendship personal.

again i stood; unwanted in the middle of nowhere.
somehow i figured that this is life.
isn't it?
the confusion.
the want.
the need.

when the darkness turns to light,
it ends tonight.

my wish.
my hopes.
my dreams.

i don't like this feeling in me.
i know i want you.
and you like me too.
but it is not enough.
although i'm in a better position than wex, i am nowhere near desirable.

i guess it's too fast...
i'm moving too fast and wanting too much from you...
i should stop and slow down...
reflect on myself before i do anything else.
focus on my career...
focus on perfecting my life before anything else..

yeah, i should do that..

stop thinking about whether u like me or not...
stop thinking whether you want me or not...
stop thinking about anything and everything that leads back to you & me...

we're comfortable now... and i have just unintentionally caused rocky waves to both of our emotions and feelings...
i really should stop drinking vinegar..
gah~ i hate it...

we're not even together and i shouldn't be an idiot and merajuk at you..
halo! i've got to wake up...
what we have is friendship...
got to remind myself that everyday...
each and everyday when i wake up...

i know you don't want to hurt me...

but i just cant stop hoping...
i'm being selfish... hahax...
oh well, if i can't fix myself, how can i give my all to you?

tarot!! i want to go for tarot reading liao...
i can feel that the end is near...
nearer than the last...

time will tell.
it never lies.
it's just that the waiting kills.