last day.

last day of the year.
so many things unresolved.
so many things left blank.

im ending 2007 with frustrations.
so much that i felt like bursting.

gained some friends, lose some.
got close to some, in a distance with some.
gained some feelings, lose some love.
got close to you, somehow stuck in nothingness.
gained some style, lose some confidence.

wo men de ai.
zhen me chai suan zhi ran?
wo men de ai, suan shi ai ma?
hai shi ai mei ne?
ai mei hen tong ku.
rang ren xin tong, rang ren ku.
dan shi wo hai zai zhe li.
wu nai de deng dai.

i keep telling myself to give you time.
keep telling myself that i cant give you security yet.
keep telling myself to wait.
keep telling myself that i cant give you what you want yet.
keep telling myself to be patient.
keep telling myself not to rush.
keep telling myself to give you space to figure everything out first.

but you.

you didn't give me any hints.
you didn't give me any hope.

i am left wih nothing.
stuck in this stupid thoughts of mine.
do you want me?
you never came around into answering that.

and i keep giving you pressure.

we're friends, just friends.
our feelings havent reach that level yet.

what happen????? arghhhhh!!!!!!!!
i dont understand.
i like you and you like me but we're not together.
maybe not enough fate?
havent even start, sudah end. hahax.

funny how things happens this way. lady love doesnt like me very much i suppose. hahax. found the person but not her heart.

what is life with no one to share with? doesnt really matter now. does it? im too used to be alone. till it comes to a point where i dont care about anyone and everyone. i dont care about myself. i dont care about my family. i dont care about my friends.

im tired of life. i truly am. hope that it ends soon. like how the year ends tonight.