kai shi dong le.

im not a child anymore.
i should only let my instincts lead me
and not control me.

take the pain out of love and then love wont exist.
but then came hate.

im feeling numb because im tired.
not because i had let go.

like a cow i am stubborn
grasping hard to something that will never come true
just because you couldnt see us.

i really have to stop doubting myself
and regain my self worth.
love isnt everything.
you're not everything.

instead, my future is my everything.

this longing will have to stop here.

you're still important.
very.
but only as someone close.
whom i have given a special place in my heart.

of all the hatred i felt,
i hate myself the most.

kai shi dong le,
kuai le shi xuan zhe.

[finally understand,
happiness is a choice.]